So, I have been keeping a few emotions bottled up lately and I think it's time I blog about it so that I can let some of the anger go....................
I never knew how hard it was going to be to have a newborn and a two year old to take care of at the same time! Just when I think the day is going OK and I feel like I can handle everything the baby starts crying because she is hungry, Penny starts getting into something she is not supposed to, then someone poops their pants, then Penny is hungry and says she needs "food right now!!!!" and just as I am trying to feed Hailey a bottle and make a ham and cheese sandwich for Penny, someone else poops their pants and around and around the whining and crying goes until everyone is feed, changed, rocked to sleep, or playing with something they are not supposed to! For the life of me I do not understand how they both could need so many things at the same time!!!! I am exhausted and I am sick of changing a million poopy diapers all day! I am also sick of doing laundry! I can not tell you all how many loads of laundry I do a week! Penny refuses to keep a bib on when she is eating so she ends up with food everywhere after every meal and Hailey likes to spit up on everything, including me, so I have to wash my clothes and everything else way too much too! To add to all the crazy running around taking care of the kids I do all day I still have not lost these stubborn last 10 lbs I have gained with the pregnancy! I am so sick of wearing an elastic around my jeans! I should be a stick by now! There is so much more that I would like to complain about right now, but maybe I will save that for another blog!
As for now I am feeling a bit better I have let that all out! I just want you all to know that I love my kids more than my own life, but they sure drive me crazy some days! I am not the greatest mother in the world, but I am trying the best way I know how.........and I guess I am doing this all for the little things in life, like Hailey smiling at me and saying, "a goo" or when Penny comes over to me after I have had it for the day and I am crying out all my frustrations, and she says,"Mommy, what's the matter, I kiss it better?" Sometimes I get so caught up in the little things I don't see all the silly, fun, and adorable things my kids do like this.......

I was so frustrated with all I had to do one day that didn't notice how completely adorable Penny was being........good thing Auntie Michelle caught it for me on camera! I just need to learn to relax a little and enjoy each day as it comes......poopy diapers, spit up, and all!!!